Will Run For Ice Cream

I kept saying that I had to do something ... that something had to change .. that I was tired of feeling the way that I feel about myself. I thought I had finally had the moment where I had decided to do things different. But the reality showed otherwise. I said I wanted it, but did I? Because if I really did want changes, wouldn't I change? But then... the moment actually did happen... it wasn't anything significant... no upcoming event... no reason that I needed to drop any pounds or feel better about myself for anything in particular... it was partly because of this blog... I have a few subscribers ( people who receive my blog via email ).. and for some reason for that certain day, my numbers were up. And I couldn't help but think, what if I could help one person along with myself? What if my actions helped changed one person's life? And that was

So, there is this thing called Dietbet. And since the biggest loser challenge had just ended, I thought why not. But real life became.... well... real life ... birthdays, parties, family visiting, lots of eating out, Easter, Easter candy still everywhere... and I slipped back into the "all or nothing" mentality. Meaning? I went over on my calories, oh well, forget it, I've messed up anyway and I ate triple or quadruple the serving size. So, guess what?

Confidence - it's something that's never come easy for me. As I find myself approaching 43 ( in a few days ) I realize this is something that I struggle with - not only with body image, but in many areas of my life. And when someone doesn't believe in me, well it makes it even harder to believe in myself.  But you know what, I've said it before, and I'll say it again until it is so inside my brain that I can't forget. I am enough .  I'll say that again. I AM ENOUGH .