Will Run For Ice Cream

I knew that I didn't have a lot of time to make a decision. This week I had already missed one run, today was another missed run, and I had to make up my mind if I was going to continue marathon training or take a different path. I was pretty sure of my decision this morning, and although my husband was disappointed that I may not run the marathon, he also supports me in my decision. By lunchtime today I had totally made up my mind that I was not going to run a full marathon in October.  However my backup plan was to run the Hershey half marathon the following weekend. Yesterday when I logged on there were spots available. Today, it was sold out. Cue the depressing dramatic sad music . I was pretty much crushed because I had decided that I was not going to run the full, but now I didn't have a back up race. I have done a lot of training this summer, and although even if I don't run a race it won't go to waste, I would still like to use this training to run...

Go big or go home-it's kind of been my motto with this marathon training. And I have to say, I think I'm going home. This definitely is not a post  that I ever intended to write. But I think I am going to bow out on the marathon for October 12. I'll pause a moment to let you collect your thoughts :( Why you ask? Well I'm just not sure that I want to do it. I believe enough in myself to know that I could finish the marathon. I even feel that I could possibly have a decent PR. But I also know that that means putting in a lot more hours, a lot of work, and I'm just not sure that I want to do it. See, I don't want to do another marathon just to complete another marathon. I want to do a marathon, and finally have a finishers time that I can be proud of. Because with the first two that really didn't happen. But I'm six weeks away and I'm tired. I'm physically tired-emotionally tired-and this really just isn't fun anymore. I know ...