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How Hard It Is To Be Me

No one has a clue just how hard it is to be me sometimes. I'm supposed to be running a race right now. Instead, I'm staring a computer screen through tears.

Why? ... fear.. anxiety... unsure of the exact location where the race was being held.. but it all comes down to fear.

I thought I had moved past this. I thought since I'd pushed myself forward and ran a couple of small races in the last couple of months that this fear was behind me. I knew that I was apprehensive about running today. It's a small race - one that I ran a long time ago. One that I've missed running in the past due to injury. So I really didn't think today would be a problem. I really didn't.

Then today happened. I froze.


Not sure anyone understands... not even me... 





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