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The Race Report That I Cannot Write

I know that everyone is expecting a race report from the 5K that I had previously said that I was going to swallow my pride and run. (When Pride Rears Its Ugly Head) But that's a race report that I cannot write, because I didn't run.

Let me rewind ...

After deciding that I would indeed run, I tried my best to get peace with that decision. And from time to time, I did have peace. But it was fleeting, and as the week went on, I became more and more stressed - to the point that I was becoming super impatient and short-tempered (no pun intended) with my family. Because the truth is, I really didn't want to run.

And the more I thought about it, the more I realized that this was silly. For goodness sake, this is a 5K race. This really isn't that big of a deal. Apparently last year with the over-training, and missed/disappointing races it really did a number on me emotionally - and I'm really not over it. I'm not. At the moment I find zero joy in racing which is so not how I have been in the past. I LOVED racing. I loved everything about it. Now the thoughts makes me a little nauseous and not pre-race jitters but nauseous as in full of dread.

So I've scrapped the rest of my races that I had on my schedule. I am looking at some trail / ultra hikes for the fall. In the late fall, I might consider a road race, but I will definitely have to be in a different place mentally than where I am now when it comes to racing. I feel that it's in my best interest to focus on running just to run without focusing on pace/times/distance/racing.

Oh, don't think that I'm not running or setting goals for myself because I am.

I'm currently focusing on strength training at least 3 times a week. I'm currently working with a trainer once a week, and it's helping me to stay on track with the strength training. I'm gradually increasing the time that I spend on strength training each week.

I'm trying to get in an hour of cardio daily with 1 day of complete rest. (Maybe 2 rest days if my body needs it or if schedules just don't allow for me to get the workout in.). I'm running 3 days a week with the other workouts as crosstraining.

So as you can see, I have not given up running - I'm simply taking a step back from racing.

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  1. Are you stepping back because of injury? Or are you just taking a break?

    1. Just taking a break... mentally need to get in a better place before I can 'race' again or run 'with a plan'.

  2. If your heart isn't in it, I think stepping back from racing is wise. It's supposed to fun afterall, right? Plus changing it up is always good too.

    1. Thank you... I think this is the right thing to do... it's supposed to fun not so stressful!


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