As I've said, this is not my first injury, but this one, well this one by far has been the worst. I think because there isn't an exact diagnosis. And because of the injury (hamstring), I'm having a hard time knowing the difference between normal soreness, slight pain, or abnormal soreness.
I was supposed to join some friends today for my first outside hilly run. But
when I got up, it hurt to walk. I think it was normal soreness in the hamstring from doing the elliptical yesterday (for the first time in months). But I didn't want to risk it with running hills for the first time since I've been back to run/walking
But I bailed - not saying it's necessarily a bad thing that I did. But I am definitely overcautious. I'm thinking borderline fear.
See, it's taken me MONTHS to be able to get back to a 4 mile run/walk. Months - and I don't want to overdo it and have a massive set back.
Because the reality is - I'm not 100% well. I know that. I'm not pretending that everything is ok - because I know it isn't.
And with that comes fear. I'm afraid to do too much - to push to hard. Am I being smart? Or am I holding myself back?
I honestly don't know. But I do know that for the first time having an injury, I'm truly fearful. And this is not a comfortable place to be in emotionally.
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I was supposed to join some friends today for my first outside hilly run. But
when I got up, it hurt to walk. I think it was normal soreness in the hamstring from doing the elliptical yesterday (for the first time in months). But I didn't want to risk it with running hills for the first time since I've been back to run/walking
But I bailed - not saying it's necessarily a bad thing that I did. But I am definitely overcautious. I'm thinking borderline fear.
See, it's taken me MONTHS to be able to get back to a 4 mile run/walk. Months - and I don't want to overdo it and have a massive set back.
Because the reality is - I'm not 100% well. I know that. I'm not pretending that everything is ok - because I know it isn't.
And with that comes fear. I'm afraid to do too much - to push to hard. Am I being smart? Or am I holding myself back?
I honestly don't know. But I do know that for the first time having an injury, I'm truly fearful. And this is not a comfortable place to be in emotionally.
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I felt that way after I broke my foot--both times. Last time was especially traumatic because it still hurts on occasion if I land wrong. I don't want to be sidelined like that again. I thought a lot about what you said about learning from injury and I take it back--I have learned a lot. I learned that I need to keep doing my hip strengthening exercises (ie clamshells) because when my hips are strong, I don't land on that toe. I've been really good about it all winter. Let's see how things go. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the reminder. I need to do my clam shells too!! :)
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