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Friday, November 14

I have a love/hate relationship with running. Just this last week, I told my husband that I wasn't running anymore. I'm finished. It's cold. It's wet. And I'm just truly disgusted with my distance, my pace and my lack of motivation. I'm done.

Today - well today I realize that I miss it. I miss setting a goal and trying to achieve it. I don't always reach my goal and when I don't, those around me tend to suffer for it - but when I do - it's a really great feeling of accomplishment. It's a feeling of being proud of myself - a feeling that I don't sometimes feel very often. So today, I am hoping to set a new goal for myself. Just three times a week, surely I can do it just three times a week. From Sunday to Saturday, I hope to run 3 times a week which means if I run on the weekends, I only have to run once during the weekday. I'm going to try to focus on the fact that I am running - not the pace or the distance or even the lonliness that I feel from missing my running buddy. I will focus on the fact that I am running or at times walking, but at least moving.

I set this goal before I watched the weather tonight. The weathermen have been describing our weather as 'chilly' when I've been freezing. Now our weather is turning 'cold' which can only mean frigid for me. But I'm telling myself that this is something I need to do... and I'm going to give it a try.

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