But real life became.... well... real life ... birthdays, parties, family visiting, lots of eating out, Easter, Easter candy still everywhere... and I slipped back into the "all or nothing" mentality.
Meaning? I went over on my calories, oh well, forget it, I've messed up anyway and I ate triple or quadruple the serving size.
So, guess what?
Not only did I lose the dietbet (which ended today), but I gained back the majority of the weight that I had lost during the biggest loser contest.
Now you have to realize this is my personal experience and my personal journey which means it will be different for you. but for the last 5 or so years, I've been dieting. I didn't realize that I was, but I was. Calorie restriction is dieting and for me trying to restrict certain things. So basically I've been yo-yo dieting for years now.
How could I have not realized that? Seriously, I really didn't know that was something that I was even doing!!!!
How many times have I said, "I did good until (insert I ate all of the brownies, ate a gallon of ice cream, ate 2 dozen cookies.. the list goes on and on)". Or, "I'm so proud of myself for eating good" today. Food really has become my enemy (When Did Food Become My Enemy?)
And weight loss or not, this isn't something that I want to continue doing.
So far with the yo-yo dieting, I've restricted calories, I've restricted food groups, I've detoxed, I've exercised to try to burn off something that I'd eaten, I've tried replacement shakes, I've tried intermittent fasting, calorie cycling (which actually worked the best of the things that I've tried so far), tracking my food, not tracking my food, not eating after a certain period of time, and in the last 5 years, so far my end result is about 15lbs heavier and feeling very yucky about how I look and my self esteem has plummeted. I felt like a constant failure all of the time!
What I want is to get back in tune with my body... before all of the dieting began.. when food.. well... was just FOOD.
So, I've just ordered Intuitive Eating (affiliate link)
So, the next phase of this journey begins. The idea behind Intuitive Eating can be found on their website but if I'm understanding it correctly it's basically getting back to basics. Eat when you are hungry. Stop before you are completely full. Stop eating due to emotions etc. And nothing is restricted. We'll see. I liked that the first principle was to reject the diet mentality. And for me personally, this is something that I need to do ASAP. Hoping this book will give me some tips and ideas on how to get back to the way that I was before I started all of this dieting and restricting.
Trust me, I'll let you know how it goes :)
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