Becoming The Woman I Am Meant To Be

- Saturday, August 01, 2015

My entire life I was scared to do anything by myself. I let fear stop me. Fear held me back. But life is too short to be controlled by fear.

I've always wanted to explore the trails, but yep, you guessed it, fear kept me from going. Then one day I decided just to do it. In fact, I was planning on giving up on running for a while - maybe forever - and I just felt the need to get out there and run/hike on the Appalachian Trail (I Ran, I Walked, I Fell, I Bled, It was Awesome)

I did my very first point-to-point adventure. I left my car, and 6ish miles later, Hubby and Lil Man picked me up on the other side. And from that run a new passion was born. Actually I think the passion was there, I was just ready to finally push past the fear of doing something by myself.

With each run, the woman who enters the woods, is not the same woman who emerges from the trail.
With each run, I'm learning more and more about myself.

I know this sounds cheesy, but it's like with each step I'm becoming the woman that I am meant to be.
With each run, I am becoming a stronger more confident person.

I'm learning not to compare myself to others. I'm slow out there on the trail. Painfully slow when I look at my paces. At times I'm below a power walk. But you know what, this is my journey. This isn't a friend's journey. This is MY journey.

And today, I did my second point-to-point route. For a split second, I almost didn't go. I knew that I could let fear stop me, or I could climb that guard rail and step into the unknown.

I stepped into the unknown.

The first mile or so was an insane climb. It felt like it was going to go on forever! But finally I reached the ridge.

Check out these views.

It was worth the climb. And it was more than just a physical struggle today to get through 10 miles on the rocky trail, but an emotional and spiritual journey to overcome the fear, put away the insecurities, and continue my journey on becoming the woman that I am meant to be.