And as I'm 2 weeks away from the Marathon, my focus and nervous energy has been directed toward that 'number'. Do I think I could hit it? Yes, why yes I do if everything fell into place.. if my stomach cooperated, if my knee pain doesn't kick in, if my calves don't cramp, if I fuel properly, if I'm hydrated adequately but not over hydrated that peeing every 5 minutes is an issue, if I'm not overly or under dressed, if my head is in the right head space, if I'm not on my period, if my shoe doesn't come untied and the list can go on and on. But yes, I really do believe that it is quite possible that I could reach 'the number'.
I know you are curious. So just what is my number? My first marathon was close to 6 hours. I honestly do not want to run 6 hours again!! So I would like to beat my first time, but I would really like to come in under 5. And my really hopeful number is somewhere between 4:45-4:49. I'm scared to even put that out there, but I do believe that is obtainable if everything (listed above and then some) fell into place.
But today as I was putting something in my car, I noticed my 26.2 sticker (yes I'm one of those), and I was wearing my 26.2 necklace (yes, I'm one of those too) I realized.. WOW in 2 weeks I'm running a marathon. And I realized I need to re-direct my energy to the fact that I am running a marathon, not that I'm trying to reach (or not reach) a certain 'number'.
The end result will be the end result. And either I will make 'the number' or I won't. But unless something unforeseen happens, I will be running my 2nd marathon and regardless of the time clock, to me that's a very big deal (I reference the sticker and marathon jewelry).
And for the first time, I got more excited about the marathon verses nervous.