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Your Body Is A Gift

It was like I had a major light bulb moment. I mean for the last 6 years, weight loss has always been a goal along with getting more physically fit and stronger. And I've heard people say that you only have one body, and you need to take care of it blah blah blah...

But it's like I felt this on a personal level - like WAKE UP GIRL! You have ONE BODY. It's YOUR responsibility to take care of the GIFT that you have been given. I experienced this while I was in bed with pain in both of my feet. My right foot was throbbing from the arthritis, and my left foot was in as much pain from my plantar fasciitis. In that moment it didn't take a genius to figure out that my body is really dealing with a lot of inflammation. And that I had been eating more for fun than for healing and nutrition.

It was definitely another nudge for me to really work on focusing to eat with a purpose. Oh, another highly processed cookie, another scoop of ice cream, another handful of marshmallows re…

Because I Said That I Would Be Honest

You know those pounds that I lost last week? Well, they are back. I am back up to 127lbs. Is it water weight? Maybe?  More than likely not... Am I frustrated? YEP!

Gone are the days in my 20's and 30's where I could drop 5lbs in one week by well, not changing much at all. Since I had Lil Man and I dieted to lose the 50lbs that I had gained during pregnancy, plus marathon training and dieting to try to get to ideal race weight, well my weight has been an issue for me - both physically and mentally.

I guess that was my first time that I actually tried to lose more than a few vanity pounds, and well since then I have struggled ever since. And I'd honestly like to know why, because I think if I figure out the why then maybe I can find a solution (for me).

And what I really want...
really and truly want.. is to just eat without worrying about calories, which food group, is it bad or good, will it make me gain weight or retain water... or actually lose weight.

What I really want is do is stop the "all or nothing" attitude. The I messed up, I'll start over tomorrow, so I eat everything and I mean everything today. I want to LISTEN to my body. I want to know my body again, because honestly, I don't even know my own body right now. It's very foreign to me.

Last week I knew I was hungry - I knew I was - but I wouldn't eat - it would be too many of this or that because of what I was eating later. Then I said forget it and ate.. and then I said forget it and ate and ate and ate because I had already 'messed' up.

Well this is messed up... this way of thinking.. this way of living.. this way of fearing the scale when it's up, loving the scale when it's down. And this is not the way that I want to live.

So I don't know what to tell you, and I almost didn't update this week. But I said that I would be honest and transparent about this journey... so this is it.. honesty along with a side of frustration.

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  1. I was having these same feelings only a month and a half ago, when I finally threw in the diet towel and started following intuitive eating. I've gained some weight since then, yes, but it's leveled off and will probably go back down the more I get in touch with my body and it's signals. It's also not the scary amount of weight I would think from how much recovery eating I've done. The weight came on fast that first week but quickly leveled off when my metabolism sped up to catch up with my eating. I no longer feel crazy around food. I'm not freezing all the time from my diet-induced slow metabolism. I can have a box of donuts in the house and eat ONE. Not to mention I'm recovering from runs better than I ever have. I've gotten to my "goal body fat percentage" before and wasn't happier. I am gonna put all that effort I used to put into dieting into learning to love what and where I am today. Thanks for sharing your truth. It really really resonated with me. Sorry I'm anonymous. I don't blog. Just read them. :)

    1. Thank you so much for your comment! And yes, my ultimate goal I think is intuitive eating!


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